Men and Cats, The Sadness Ensues

I’ve been really sad this week, I’m not having the best luck with guys and my cat isn’t healthy.  Lets start with the men.

So one guy I met at a friend’s fundraiser, he’s a musician and in a band that has the same name as me…he thought that “meant something”.  Anyways I was standing by myself listening to a band when he came over to talk.  He typically isn’t my type…to give a brief description, he’s a white guy (almost pale), tall, very “hip hop” dressing, and he’s a RED HEAD!  I guess the only issue I had was that he’s a red head, cause I never technically cared about skin color or the way a dude dresses.  So we had a wonderful conversation…which is new for me, because I typically have a short attention span for conversation.  We talked politics, germophobia, music, his tattoos and naughty librarians.  He even wanted a picture with me.  That day he gave me his album and number, I listened and text him that I enjoyed his music.  We were actually supposed to meet up that night but his car got broken into.

After that day he kept telling my friend that he really liked me, he never actually talked to me til I saw him recently at his album release party for his solo project.  When he saw me, he kept saying how fine I was and he was really liking me.  Since it’s his party and he has other friends there, I didn’t find it weird that we only came in contact twice that night.  So on to very very recently when I text him, I decided that it’s really hard to gauge if he likes me or not, or he could think I don’t like him.  So I  asked him on a date, after I inquired what he thought about dates and ultimately it led to him asking me to ask him out.   And his response was “I’ll be in touch”.  WTF is that?  What does that even mean? Considering he’s a serious guy, I figured he was being serious.

I decided that if he doesn’t call or text me before the Halloween party that he said I should go to, then I’m not going…because I don’t feel I should waste my time for a guy that obviously either likes to be chased and coddled or doesn’t really want to tell me he doesn’t like me.

The next guy is the long distance guy who I’ve been talking to since about this time a year ago.  He was my favorite guy.  Anyways, before I made the decision to not talk to the musician guy first anymore, this guy told me he is in like with another girl.  Honestly, that’s not what hurts, it’s that he obviously stopped liking me a long time ago (sometime this year) and I have no clue as to why.  I detected a slight change in personality, but you never really know when you’re not there to physically see or talk to the person.  Anyways, I’m highly perplexed why I’ve been suddenly unliked, my only guess is that he got to know me more and apparently I’m THAT horrible person he’d not ever want to like.

I suppose another factor that made it hurt is that even if I’m into other guys, I still talked and would prefer to be with the long distance guy.  I still cared about what was going on in his life even though I knew his response would always be along the lines of “same ol same ol”.  But, I got none of that behavior reciprocated to me, instead I got a sort of blankness and not really caring to share anything like he use to.  But just like the musician guy, once again I like someone that doesn’t believe in making me feel happy or reassured in anyway.  It’s like I’m always doing the work and it shouldn’t be that way.

Now on to my cat which has caused me the most stress and money and time…and energy.  So I recently gotten a new kitten who is healthy and playing a lot….I love him so much  :)   But my other cat that’s old yet was running around lively just days before he got ill…he has stopped eating and drinking overnight…his stomach is completely empty.  I really love this cat, he is stellar and intuitive and attentive and he likes the new kitten enough to clean him that it just can’t be the kitten causing this.  I spent nearly $500 on tests (which to me is worth it) his protein levels are high which the vet says might indicate cancer in the future, yet his white blood cell count is normal…so that’s weird.  Another thing wrong is the x-ray showed he has a slightly larger stomach and intestine.

My cat doesn’t even want to be around food when I present it to him.  Twice I’ve seen him walk  towards the water and food, but never eats or drinks it.  This is so weird, everyone else says this is normal with a new kitten and I shouldn’t worry but my cat is nearly 11yrs old.  He can have harsh consequences for not eating…so I’ve been giving him caloric medicine, vitamins and pain relievers.  I hope he gets better, I’ve been crying a lot since yesterday…I wasn’t even in the animal exam room for 1 min before I started crying at the vet.  It has been very hard on me, he is my main prioority as of now, which is probably explantatory of my attitude towards caring about musician guy (not long distance though, I’m still sad about him)

Anyways, until then…toodles…wish my cat gets better for me.

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