I Think I Want To Be Left Alone & Ninja Squirrel

So it’s near the end of this semester.  Though I’ve been happy for most of it, it’s starting to end in a very sad way.  Apart from me not being able to handle an increased amount of social attention, I also tend to create more awkward experiences for myself then what’s normal.  I kind of have been chalking my experiences to me not being used to talking much…which is true.  It’s all so new to me and since the semester started, majority of my free time has turned into social events.  I might be able to search through old blog posts and find where I might have written, “I wish I had more of a social life” well now I’m dreading it…at least this level of social(ness).

The ecology department where I have been working and doing research most of the time is a very small portion of the entire biology department.  Everybody has gotten to know everybody.  The means, we have all been going out for drinks and eats, getting to know each other more.  And the more they get to know me, the more I’m either a brat, I do strange things, or I’m spoiled, yet I’m still fun to hang out with.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I am proudly all of those things.  But when I am, it’s usually with the intent of laughter or an ironic joke in which I’m usually successful.  Also, being around them has greatly opened my eyes as to what other people do and it’s a growing experience that I probably needed.  Ya know, to open myself up to others more, learn how to communicate, reinforce that age old theory about me that I am cool once you get to know me, and to also know how others perceive me.

With that has come my status of “like family“.  I dread this now, as an only child who has been happily left alone most my life, I don’t think I like being the little sister.  Don’t get me wrong, I actually love being around them.  But lately, I have been texting a lot (to a guy) and it was always, “Sooo, who you texting?” and I’d say, “no one important” or “None ya business“.  As one of the grad students said, “It’s like blood in the water“…referring to my uncomfortableness about people asking me intrusive questions.  Eventually, I let my guard down and he saw who text(ed) me on the phone and now the new questions are “So hows the guy you’re talking too?“, knowing that I hate those type of questions!

It’s not like I want to be like that, I just like having the option of people not trying to be in my personal life.  Which is weird, cause I don’t care if people online know my business except from pin and social security numbers…  On to boys…besides the one I text a lot, there has been one other.  He works in the lab across from me.  I don’t know how to describe him as…basically (I’m assuming) not interesting in me.  I don’t know why.  We went on a class trip up north and he was totally staring at my boobature and we actually get a long very well.  Anyways, he’s very shy, and I saw his chest up north on our ecology trip and I didn’t really like it…I mean, I could do better.  If I’m going to settle for guy with a lackluster chest, he better be exciting and meet my personality requirements.  Also, our ecology teacher thinks he looks like Gumby, so that also kind of puts a nail in whatever chance I would try to get with him :P LOL

So, in the lab I’m looking at the tolerance levels of two invasive species of mussels.  The main method is checking mortality…so far….none are dying ;p  Which sucks because I’m going to …. PUERTO RICO!! to present my research in the form of a cool science poster at a conference and I will have virtually no results.  The experiment is still running.  Currently the mussels are surviving in the toxic sediment except one and only one…ONE has died in the toxic water at an increase temperature!  So…I don’t know what will happen next.

On to actual classes…so basically I’m not doing good in any class :P pretty much failing my evolution and population and community ecology class.  In evolution, the teacher writes ridiculous questions, like WTF? Why even ask this? type questions.  And in my population and community ecology class, the exam questions are ridiculously hard, the class average of graduates and undergrad students are in the 54% range give or take 1%!  This sucks because this is my second to last semester and I should be doing good.

Another thing to mention is that I finally finished my project proposal.  I was the first to submit it before the deadline of Nov. 26th.  Then, they announced they are extending the deadline for the late comers due to the holidays.  I think it’s rather unfair, I worked really hard to get it done early.  It already sucks that I was the first one to submit it.  They weren’t even ready for my submission, I’m scared it’ll get lost in the office somewhere!

On another note, because I’m sick of writing this post, if you’re wondering about squirrels…here’s my crazy ass squirrel story.  So I was clearly minding my business going to the garbage to throw out trash (my god given right to do so).  Suddenly, I didn’t even start to put the trash in the bin when this squirrel just started going crazy.  I was scared for my life.  It was jumping towards me multiple times and jumping backwards multiple times….like a ninja squirrel.  Anyways, when I went on the other side of the bin  it actually ran away.  Kind of ironic this ninja squirrel couldn’t turn around to fight me! Anyways, garbage in garbage bin, Mission Accomplished!

So that’s the end of my post.  Toodles!!!

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