Alone Again…Kind Of

So, my last post was a success, in my opinion, I’m actually surprised at how many people read it.  I expect to make millions from it one day and Fabio will star in the movie remake.  The post before my story post was about the now “ex”.  After I broke up with him, I am so much happier.  It’s like a huge weight off my shoulders and I feel free.  I don’t know why having him as a BF seemed like so much work, maybe I didn’t need to be in a relationship.  He’s sad, oh well, he’ll get over it, I’m sure a church choir singer or nun will get his mind off of me.

Now that I’ve been alone for these few days, I get more time at night to think which is extremely important for my sanity.  I get more time to be alone, I’m an introvert…it’s like the perfect lifestyle for me.

The scoop is that I’m an only child.  I have it a lot harder than all you’s multiple sibling people.  I have to go through life alone, not having anyone to protect or help me now.  When I was younger in middle and high school, I always had friends who defended me.  I never knew why they would do that but I was happy and grateful.  But, I still have to go through life not knowing how to deal with certain situations until I’m in them.  Everyone is practically overly obsessed with my safety.  It’s extremely annoying in many ways.  I’d be a lot better off if I had a sibling to take some of the spotlight away from me.

Today our class helped to plant trees in a soon to be sprawling wetlands area.  It was nice, I made a few jokes, got to know my peers a little more, got my clothing dirty, the cider and cookies at the end were great too. Situation:  Want to hangout and cling on to a classmate but the classmate doesn’t realize it and prefers to hangout with other people.  Yeah, I’m that other classmate.  I just realized today that this guy keeps trying to go and do what I do.  Since I think he’s the masculine gay type, I assume it’s not cause he like-likes me.  I actually like talking to him but we’re always in a situation where my friends drag me in another direction and he’s kind of just left there to go with some other people in the class.  I feel bad when I look over this semester so far and realized this.  I mean, I am a sweet nice person that cares about other people’s opinions and feelings.

After we got back to campus we went to the local bar.  Of course I got lost, ended up in a bad neighborhood (in my view) glad I found the bar cause I was running out of gas.  They all had beer while I had a coke.  I had fun, we talked about random things, school and goals.  The teacher stopped by and tested out some beer she hadn’t tried before but for the most part she got coke.  I actually had a lot of fun.  They’re definitely an interesting crowd.  I was invited to go to another bar but I said, whoops gotta study…I haven’t studied yet, but I don’t care to enjoy the nightlife.  I’m more laid back, I like the small talk over lunch/dinner type things.  After a few more drinks and dividing up the tip (deciding who pays what), I left.  I go to my car and find that I do indeed have my first ticket for a parking violation.  That violation is parking too close to the yield sign.  You’re supposed to park 30 feet away from a yield sign but I honestly don’t know what 30 feet from anything looks like.  Anyways, if I pay the ticket in 10 days then they deduct $10 from the ticket, so it looks like I’ll only have to pay $20.  That’s life, you make mistake, pay the consequences and don’t make that mistake again (hopefully).

I’m thinking about replacing the first and last picture on my “about me” page.  Replace them with the real me.  Meanwhile, I realized my camera is more photogenic then me…but technically almost everything and everyone is more photogenic then me.  Btw, I hate my chin.  And SOMEONE suggest a certain picture of me be my FB profile picture but, in my opinion that picture looks Oogly.  I was going to post the home video of my turtles today but I also wanted to post other pictures and weird video compilation of cats and crap but my camera is in the car and I don’t feel like getting it.  Also, I was going to do a Halloween post but I changed my mine.  I don’t need to share scary experiences.  Rather unnecessary at this point.  Meanwhile, I’m in love with this new video from Miami Horror called “Sometimes”.  I play this song in my car almost everyday now.