Life just continues to suck on so many levels. So, few days ago, Wednesday, I think, I end up missing Spanish because I had to make a quick run to the salon. Thinking my hair is falling out…more than usual. I don’t take care of my hair, and the split ends seemed to be the issue, so I decided to get a wash and cut. My hair doesn’t look thin anymore, probably because all the hair products made my hair follicles stick together and appear as though I was missing hair. I decided I’m going to let it grow out more naturally, probably way past my shoulders before I do anything drastic. My hair is like everything to me. I have to take better care of it.
Anyways, after the salon, since I didn’t get my hair styled, only trimmed, I rushed back home to try to style it. It was late and I already missed Spanish so I put my hair in two ponytails and left the house. Weird, how I had many guys trying to hit on me. I truly don’t get it, there’s really nothing cute about me in pigtails, unless you consider my bravery cute. I don’t know why guys like them on certain women. Granted, if I looked like a country bumpkin then I probably wouldn’t have so many prospects.
Moving on to yesterday. So, like I said, I got a 100% on my 3rd math quiz. So I was sitting in math class and I look up at the board and I notice this thing staring at me from the bottom corner of my eye. He was literally staring at me really, really hard for like a minute. Then I finally decided to look directly at him and he tooootally looked away towards the clock LOL. It was hilarious but I’m curious as to why he’d be staring at me, I’ve never seen him before. And if he thought I was cute, he better think again cause I didn’t think he was cute. He was really pale and he needed a tan of some sorts.
Speaking of stares, back to Wednesday, so I was walking to lab and all of the sudden this girl passed by me and literally stopped and stared. I didn’t know what to do but since I was in a rush, I didn’t have time to talk. She did look familiar, but I can’t put my finger on where or how I know of her. Anyways, as I was walking past her, I said, “hiii*iiiiii*” really softly so that maybe she hears me but in a hopefully she doesn’t sort of way.
On to today….HORRIBLE only went to one class….PHYSICS! For the PHYSICS! exam. Failed on so many levels. The exam was easy in some aspects, the problem is that I left my calculator at home (Fail #1). I went to the party store and bought a basic calculator for $3.49 (Fail #2). During the exam, the key pad broke (Fail #3). Then the numbers 1 and 4 on the calculator completely stopped working (Fail #4). Eventually I gave up and put any answer and left (Win #1?).
Back to Thursday. So I was at the sandwich shop waiting on one of the best sandwiches in the world. I was literally waiting for 20 minutes. Normally the sandwich takes a while to make but I didn’t realize it’d take this long. Eventually, I got up and asked how much longer the sandwich would be and the girl said that she mistakenly gave it to a guy that said it was his but wasn’t. Then she complained about him being dishonest. Anyways, after I finally got my sandwich, I went to class to sit and be happily alone…sort of…there’s this little spy camera they have in the classes,
So that was my day(s). Thank god it’s Friday because I need a break. Next week I’m kicking it into high gear…again. I have 3 more scientific papers to read, physics lab report and homework due, finally start studying for ecology, study for next math and spanish quizzes.
Sooo…the last time I posted here was on Jan. 25th, so I’ll start from there. And I promise, this will only take you a minute to read…I swear! :-O
- Life sucks, work, school, work
- Didn’t do good on my math quiz, on the 26th cause as some of you may remember…I didn’t study because I was too busy worrying about my speeding ticket.
- Also on the 26th, I was sitting in class, eating some Hot Tamales when all of the sudden, the crown on my tooth fell off. Luckily, it only seemed to come off whilst chewing so I didn’t have to carry my crown with me in a widdle baggie or somethin’. But, I still decided that Hot Tamales are awesome so I continued to eat them and just tongue wrestle my tooth into place.
- Next day I went to the dentist to get it sealed back on. Problem solved…I hope.
- Missed Physics class again….luckily they don’t take attendance.
- Went to lab to pick bugs out of a pattry dish.
- spilled ethanol on me, luckily it drys quickly…sadly enough I did not gain any super powers.
- Realized I didn’t collect empty Caddisfly cases…I only collected the ones with Caddisflies in them.
- Went to the supplies store to pickup things for my dad’s business…guy at the store asked if I told my dad that they said “Hi”….I said, “yeah”… I lied….I’ll visit him tomorrow (Wednesday)….so hopefully I will remember then.
- Over the weekend, nothing happened, but I did purposely abandon many of my online activities except twitter of course oh and started a new blog, mainly because I needed to fully focus on my work.
- And, it worked, I got 100% on my physics assignments, read 3 scientific papers, finish a lab report and today (Tuesday) I took a math exam and I got 100% biotchesss.
- So now after 4 days of doing nothing but twitter, I’m kindof back online. I’ll go missing again, but not for this long…maybe.
- I still have one more physics assignment to do and a physics exam this Friday. I’m fully prepared to fail that exam, so I’ll do little studying.
- oh and Monday was the first time I went to Physics lecture since the first week of classes…hmm….I’m not impressed…
There’s a bit more to finish, but I really don’t care if every single detail of my life is on a blog lol. I have no pictures to show except these two lame pictures I took out of boredom and waiting for class to start.
And the type of life that is still worth blogging about. I actually waited til today to post another post about happenings in my life but I think I forgot some of the other stuff from last week that were blog worthy. Anyways, oh uh…I started working in the lab last week which was fun. There was a slight rough patch which wasn’t really rough but one of my trusted online friendsos (friends) started wanting to chit chatting (for no reason) on gTalk at the right time, which was helpful in my calming down since I needed input. I don’t wanna mention it here though cause it’s so weird and funny (now that I think about it). Or at least funny looking back on it, cause I’m such a screwup.
So last Thursday when I finally got to work in the lab, I just picked insect out of the patry dish. Then she explained to me and the other student what the research is for. It’s to research the effects of a new mining operation on a stream or lake. Friday I also came by the lab and did the same thing. The chair was so low that my back started hurting. Now I know why so scientist look like Hunchback of Nostradam (I think that’s the title). By the way, I’m also kidding lol (just wanted to clarify). I think it’ll be a fun learning experience for me and though I don’t show how much I like it, I really do like it.
Moving on, I’m freaking awesome. I still can’t remember anything I did the first time I took Calculus 2 which makes my second go around of the class, not really any easier, but I managed to get a 100% on the first quiz. I was one of 16 to do so. The teacher said from his experience that everyone will drop. Meaning, people that usually get A’s on the first exam, get A- in the class and so on. And he said usually by the third exam he can tell who’s going to pass or not. Which probably makes sense. The class is only 2 days out the week and for 2+ hours straight, there’s not enough quizzes or exams in the class to boost grades from a previous poor performance. It sucks, but his quizzes so far are easy. I have one tomorrow.
Next, hmmm…can’t really remember stuff from last week that I wanted to blog about but….oh wait. No, no, still can’t remember.
Today, I went to court. The previous night I was so nervous that all I could do was annoy others online and not study. Also for preparation I went online to see others experiences. I found a book about how to beat a traffic ticket. Once I got through a good portion of the book, Google cut out some of the pages. Then I remembered to go on my universities library website. Thankfully, they also had the electronic version of the book, so I read the majority of the book online. I took notes and even did what it said, like create a diagram of the area and elements when I was stopped.
Unfortunately, none of my research mattered once I got there. I was praying that the cop wouldn’t show up and the trial could be dismissed. Unfortunately, he showed up and offered a deal that he would allow no points on my license but the fine would be slightly higher. I didn’t care how much it cost, I just didn’t want my insurance rates to go up. So I took his deal, even though I’m pretty sure that if I had just fought the ticket more, that I would get the whole thing dismissed.
Luckily there were 2 other people my age that took the same deal. We were all called to the stand at the same time and we all pleaded guilty to our lower charge of a parking violation. We were all offered this deal because of our clean driving records. So, we then went to the front and paid $155. I didn’t have any problem with the costs but one girl’s father did, in which he said that she owes him $155. Too bad, that’s a lot of money for someone that has little, or at least I’m assuming they have little cause they weren’t even sure if there was that much money on the card.
Anyways, so that was my life thus far. Pretty sure I still can’t remember what else I wanted to type. Oh I saw a cute boy today with a sexy voice but he’s related to the guy that lives in the apartment below us and I don’t like the idea of that. And, it’s official, one of my best friends are leaving the state. This means I only have one friend left in Michigan and she goes to school on the other side of the state! I really need to work on getting more friends. Well, toodles, gotta study and then go to physics. Wait, but when I publish this post, I’ll be at home so by time you read this, I’ll be online and/or getting ready for work.
Edit: My partner for physics is awkward, I can tell our experience together will be like an episode of Frasier, except without a dog. But, he’s cool so far.
Edit: Forgot to mention that I got new glasses, I still like the old ones but the new ones are growing on me. Don’t laugh, I know I look horrible and frumpy!!
With every doorknob and light switch comes this electric shock
The pulse and feel is scary and hurtful.
Leaving this place is a must.
The plastic of the interior is where I want to be the most.
The electric shock seems to follow.
It crosses my path and stops, and stares but tries to keep going.
Just another guy another day but not another moment
The mind questions this particular stare wondering it’s methods.
The mind remembers it has other places to venture.
Driving away from this tall, cute but unknown positive charge I look back,
He’s still looking and maybe wondering, why he couldn’t transfer his charges onto me.
But, maybe another day another moment, things will be different.
Maybe we’ll conduct.
So, I was going to write a short thing in my last post, Extra Happenings. But when I forgot to mention it I thought I’d do a whole separate post.
I was on the phone with my friend and we were talking about boys. Then we started talking about our racial preferences. Of course, I don’t discriminate in that category so I said, “all races, it doesn’t matter”. Then he was like, “Asian?”. I said, “yeah”. He was surprised but many people don’t know I have a special thing for Asians. Then he said, “White?” and I’m like, “of course”. Then he said, “Dominican” and I was like, “yeah…whatever”. He has a thing for the Dominicans, I however only met a few and they were cute but not my type. I’m in love with the accent though. Anyways, then he went through a list of other races and I was like, “YEAH, whatever it doesn’t matter!”. Then I started talking about my physical preferences.
Here’s my very short list of physical preferences. I promise, it’s short.
- Taller than me (I’ll accept him being the same height)
- Medium to big (big as in muscular but not too muscular, I don’t want bodybuilder) body build
- Big feet (like seriously, I wear between a 9-10 so the guy has to wear bigger than a 10)
- Big & strong hands
- No chest hair (I hate it, yuck
) - Strong facial bone structure
- Rugged fashion style (don’t like guys that care a lot about how they look)
- no metrosexual
- Regular hair style (no faux-hawk, afro, gel required hairstyle, braids, perm )
- No huge neck
- No fat ass (OMG, boys with big asses are disgusting, I can’t express how much I hate it)
- Medium sized lips
- No constant acme or bumps on said face
- No deformed anything, like no person with three nipples
- 7-8+ inches #justsayin
- Beautiful smile but not too cheeky or cartoonish
- No big or long nose
See, that’s all I ask for 
It’s definitely not as long as my Prefect Guy list. I tend to forego much of this list if the guy’s personality is perfect for me. I’ve been with geeks who for whatever reason are smaller (skinny). And I suppose it really doesn’t matter if they chest hair…I’ll most likely talk them into shaving it anyways 
So there it is, my physical male preferences. I’m sure I forgot to mention a couple…
Before classes started and now that classes have started there were some random inbetween happenings that aren’t important but I wanted to share cause if you’re anything like me, you get amused by the simplest things that happen in your life.
So, I have new glasses on the way. Before classes started, I went to the eye doctor. My prescription didn’t change at all. My eye doctor weirds me out, probably because he looks like a pedobear weird. Anyways, when I talked to the eye technician to see what glasses I want, I told her I want something like Sarah Palin’s glasses. I think her glasses are cute but she says she gets request for her glasses all the time and they don’t have a style like that. Then she said she’d order them but they cost $1,500. So my next choice was a black frame that’s square. For some reason the night before I imagined I might want to go for the Daria look. Which btw, was one of the best sitcoms ever. Anyways, I figured the round glasses wouldn’t be cute and square frames seem to fit me best. I’ll go to pick them up next Friday and I’ll be sure to take a picture and post another video with my annoying voice on Facebook
Next, one day I was looking out my window in my room and saw this huge bird. The tree is right in front of my window and most days, since my computer desk and bed is face toward the window, I’m always looking out and seeing only small birds. I managed to take pictures and video of this insignificant sighting. Granted, since there’s a screen in the window, the pictures didn’t come out well.
Then one day I was at my computer and saw something dark crawling. ZOMG, it was a spider. I currently have two spiders in my room. One is presumably dead in the corner of the wall, it hasn’t moved since last summer. Then there’s one in my bedroom closet. It’s too high for me to reach, I’ll just wait til it decides to emerge from its web and scare me. Anyways, so I didn’t want another spider in my room. But this time, I didn’t freak out and get scared to kill it. Instead I thought smart. I grabbed a bucket of water and Raid. I put the bucket under the spider, hoping it’d fall in there when I spray it with Raid. And it work!!
I’m quite surprised I acted so swiftly cause usually I’d stare at the wall contemplating how to kill it without it falling on the floor and running away, only to appear again. After I caught it in the bucket, I went to the bathroom and stared at it for about 20 minutes, watching it squirm and crawl whilst drowning before flushing it.
Oh and I didn’t have any awkward moments on my first week of volunteering in the lab….because I didn’t have lab. I went to the lab and knocked on the door and no one answered. Then I e-mailed the teacher asking about if my lab hours were ok. Well apparently, everyone was gone! She and another person had a meeting and the lab manager was in Disney Land. Since she won’t be there on Fridays, she wants me to start next week. Which is good because Friday (today) I needed some rest.
And as far as work is concerned, I’ll be working on Wednesdays, there’s been a change in plans. To be honest, I’m a bit of a perfectionist when doing a job. The person that was going to take over on Wednesdays isn’t there yet, as far as doing the job perfectly and my dad wanted me to go in after him and make sure everything was ok. At that point, since he works slow, I wouldn’t be able to checkup after him until nearly 2am in the morning. So, I decided that we’ll work together and the job could be finished within 2hrs and we can both be home early. Speaking of my dad, he’s out of the hospital. He’s at his sister’s house right now and I guess I’ll go over to see him tomorrow or Sunday…maybe Monday.
So, I’m pretty sure I’m missing something else. I’ll just add it to my next post if I left out anything else insignificant.
My enigma is darkness,
Eyelids descend over the pupils of stress.
The day has gone but the light is still on,
Darkness has fallen but cannot invade these walls.
Light will fall onto dark like oil onto water.
When the time comes and the doors open,
it will be nothing anew.
So, yesterday was more classes that I had for the first time. I meant to write and publish this post yesterday but little interesting happened.
First was Spanish, blah-blah-blah, fun. Oh and there’s a girl who I’ll call my Spanish-class-only-friend(?) who is equally if not worse at Spanish than me. Which is FABULOSO!!! I think I’m going to love this class. Also, she has a used Spanish book where the person before her wrote the answers in the book which is awesome because my used book is the same too so I don’t have to feel awkward when the teacher says, pair up and do these problems…since they’re already done.
Next was Ecology which was interesting. Lots of new faces and there was 3 familiar faces besides the professor. One of the people didn’t recognize me at first til we had to introduce ourselves to the class, then he was looking at me kind of weird. I’m a horrible on the spot speaker and I can’t believe I was shaking just so I could say, hey my name is ****, I’m a bio major, hopefully graduating in Fall or Winter semester, I like ecology. I really need to work on my nerves, luckily no one noticed my shaking….hopefully. After giving his uber fast run through of the syllabus, the teacher gave an uber boring lecture. I’m sure it’ll be more interesting but the first lecture, I already knew what he was lecturing about.
Then there was Calculus TWO. Oh My GAWWWD….the class was crowded and after the teacher went through the syllabus I could see why. He’s going to be super EASY!!! I’m so excited. We get to use formula sheets and calculators on the test and quizzes. He’s such a good teacher, I understood everything he said. I’m still trying to guess what his accent is. He sounds like my tio politico who is German. By the way, I used tio politico, which is Spanish, because there’s not a term in English to describe it. Though I could use uncle but it’s my aunt’s husband. Anyways, I also recognized a familiar face from like freshman year and I’m completely surprised she remembered me.
So, that was it, and I didn’t want to clutter this post so I have a thread of all the unrelated stuff that happened in between and before classes started that I wanted to mention. And since you know I love music, here’s Amerie ft. Fabolous “More Than Love”,
This is part 1 of my first day back to school. Technically tomorrow won’t be my first day but I will have different classes with the exception of one class tomorrow. So, I’ll be attending the class for the first time…hope that made sense.
So today was Physics, Spanish, and Physics Lab respectively. This semester I just feel it’s going to be different. The night before I wasn’t even anxious to go back. Normally every year, I can’t sleep the night before because there’s a part of me that just can’t wait to go back to school, but not this year. Even with the fact that I’ll be volunteering in the lab. Also, I kept thinking that with the long break and her busy lifestyle that my teacher probably forgot I was planned to work in the lab. I thought about e-mailing her but I just figured I’d show up to the lab and see what happens, hopefully there will be no awkward moments if she did indeed forget. Also, the night before, I took an anti-biotic and Tylenol for my tooth and once 2am hit, I was feeling really weird. My hand felt bigger than my face and my chin felt super small. Also, that morning, I couldn’t find my physics textbook which I thought I still had, I hope it’s somewhere in my room.
Back to the actual day of classes, so I woke up twice because I’m crazy, I always set 2 alarms that are 30 mins apart. I woke up at 8am knowing I’d have enough time to get dressed and make it to class at 9:35am. I was mistaken, I left the house at 8:40am and traffic on the freeway was literally crawling at 10mph, the roads were only moderately bad. I was dangerously sleepy the whole time while driving because I took the anti-biotic and Tylenol before I left.
I was 30 mins late for class and when I got in I wasn’t sure I was in the right class. My teacher was not female, Indian, or short. Later he described to us late comers that he was not the real teacher which was a relief, so much that we laughed in relief. He said that the teacher was sick and couldn’t make it, the person that was supposed to sub for her was stuck in traffic and that he has no syllabus to give us. Later in the class the guy that was stuck in traffic arrived and took over. He’s actually a good teacher, wish he was ours.
Next class was Spanish, our teacher is from Puerto Rico and very nice. She is also soft and slow spoken and if she wasn’t Puerto Rican I’m sure we’d think she was on drugs. I think I might actually like this class. It’s my last Spanish class that I have to take. In class we had to ask the person next to us, questions about their name, city, and phone. Then she went over the syllabus. The bonus part about the class is that the teacher can pronounce my name and theres another girl with the same name. So whenever she calls out my name, I’ll look at the other girl with a puzzled look and hopefully (like in most cases) the other girl will answer whatever question lol, trust me, that trick works.
Next class was Physics Lab which I don’t have til 3pm so I had a long break in between. I went to the bookstore to buy my lab book and stopped to get a pita sandwich. Since I also forgot my notebook and I had no homework or anything, I just did random things online. Then once I decided to leave for class early, I get there an a sign says, Classes won’t start til week of Jan 25. I COULD have went home hours ago if that was the case. But no, the university can’t even send an e-mail informing students that lab classes won’t start this week *-*
My cousin on my dad’s side of the family will work on Wednesdays so I don’t have to This is turning out to be an ok day to what I thought was going to be a boring and difficult day. The bad part about this day is that I forgot to bring my anti-biotics so I missed taking 2 pills at my normally scheduled times. I’m in class from 9:35am to 5pm 3pm. Hope this does effect whatever the anti-biotics are supposed to be doing.
I didn’t want to go to school and you could even say I went back kicking and screaming, but it wasn’t that bad, lets just hope it stays that way. Almost forgot to add a random song to this post, today it’s Doubt by Delphic, I think the video is cool,
Life is busy right now. I’m running across the metro area doing things that normally my dad would do. Like most people would be, he’s surprised I could handle all of this. Yesterday, I paid the car note and tried to get to the hospital, unfortunately the directions I got from Google were faulty. My mom was too busy to give me directions (she drives for a living), the people at the gas station gave me weird directions so I decided to take the long way. I think I’ve seen parts of the city that I’ve never seen before anyways, the city isn’t that safe so I didn’t want to be driving in secluded sketchy areas of the city. I did find my way to a familiar part and got to the hospital.
My dad gave me his atm card so I got an unlimited supply of money, though I’m only spending it on food more so then on stuff I don’t need. I took out $560 for the car note, cleaning supplies, gas money, food, and because he keeps wanting me to buy stuff for him. I don’t know what I’m going to do next semester. I not only have to take 5 classes, work 2 days in lab volunteering but I might have to work 5 days a week, which sucks.
On top of everything, I have the court date later on this month, I had this root canal and have to take medication because of it. I’m going to be a miserable and depressed person for at least the next 3 months.
If I at least don’t have another day of work off, then I might not blog for a long time. Though, I think I said that last semester and I blogged like hell. Classes don’t start til Jan. 11th (Thank God). Classes haven’t even started and I can’t wait til Spring Break. Which reminds me, I need to get ticket prices. Ticket prices don’t seem to decrease the longer you wait to buy one anymore. So I think I learned my lesson from a couple years ago and I’ll just buy the ticket early. I go through Northwest Airlines because I love that airline, I don’t get the feeling that it’s a cheap airline, they offer lunch on the plane, and I can trade in my frequent flier miles for a year subscription to various magazines.
I’ll make it more clear then normal that I don’t want a social life. I don’t have time for it. The demand of living the life that I’ll have, is too much. I definitely have to be more organized, persistent, and a non-pessimist. I’m sure I’ll have some happy moments to share with you all or updates to post about my life. I guess I should look at this from a growing perspective. As we get older, we get busier and take on more responsibilities. This is probably a good thing for me to go through.
The life sucks.
Here’s a video, “Elephants” by Warpaint
